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Elizabeth - 2002-06-17 23:07:13
Hey... I guess I just popped in after I added the ring link to my site to tell you i did... but i really just want to blabber and look... i found a place to do it! I guess If you charge b the hour I'm save to type fast fora few minutes. Ya know what? I read your diary today... it makes me sad to think that some people really do struggle with physical self abuse. I would hate to be a prisoner of that but I always feel like i could help in some way--- but my friend Melissa told me that other people can't help (how don't cut theirselves) because it doesn't matter... you haven't been through it and you can't feel it. I'm glad I don't and i'm sorry you do. I think that today i am struggling not to dig myself a grave and go sleep in it. I don't know... that feeling that it is all crumbling, and falling and floating away from you. You wish you could fly up and get it but you knew if you had teh energy to jump you would only break yourself when you fell. I guess it all is up to how easy it is to lock the door and turn up the music and try to be okay with life and realize that this isn't everything- it isn't near everything and in some strange sick way it will all help you out in the end... it will help you out to know that you have felt the deepest of pain and you have thought abotu life and death and had your tears mixed with blood and you have become stronger knowing you don't have to be like that. In the future you will cry with happiness. Even if it sounds like a fairytale, i know I want it. Even though i don't cut myself. i walk aroud like a zombie sometimes and listen to music much to loud and laugh at gross things and cry at happy things and over analyz and cry and beat the pillows and get stuck in that empty glass sometimes. Like now. But i'll be okay- and i want you to be too. I'd pay you if i had internet safe bills... thanks for listening
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maggie - 2002-07-03 10:33:57
nice diary
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Ellie - 2002-08-22 05:02:21
Ooh, you have one of those KITTIES!! They amuse me for hours. I like your diary, it looks just like a real one - and you've quoted my favourite book too (a Tale of Two Cities)
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Amy - 2002-09-09 19:35:10
Hey I like your diary...could you tell me how you got the counter for cutting yourself? I'm wanting to do something similar. Thanks! I liked your diary ;-P
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lvchickadee - 2002-10-03 14:45:05
you're weird.
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darkeone - 2002-10-07 14:31:43
15 days? well done. i can go three at most. yay me.
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Susie D. - 2002-10-08 20:47:16
I'm very impressed. I know somewhat how you feel. I've had my... own experiences. I'd tell you more if you wanted, but I doubt you do. Anyway, keep it up. And, I would love to know how to do the counter, too. I think it might help to reassure(?) my friends and loved ones a bit. Plus, I lose count of the days, and I want to find out if I'm even doing any better.
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Richard - 2002-10-16 19:31:15
Love you!
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Franny glass - 2002-11-05 17:38:54
I don't exactly know why i'm writing this.. i guess i'm just glad that some other people out there feel the same way that I do. I haven't gotten drunk in about 2 months and I haven't cut myself in about a little over a month. I think I was in denial for a long time about my problems, and I just needed someone to talk to, but I didn't, and somehow managed to get a little help on my own. good luck to you too.
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katerina - 2002-11-06 18:48:32
Your tally's subject beneath this tagboard caught my interest.
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