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When. I called when!

I don't want to die.
I just don't want to be anymore.
I don't want to exist.
I feel worn down.
Dragged 'round
This will make it better because I will have control again.
I will have feelings again.
I can say 'That there, that feeling is pain'.
Not this endlessness I am feeling right now.
153 d 10 h and I just don't want to do another day.
Why is it harder to not do something?
To not bleed.
To not hurt.
Why is it harder to heal?
I have been white knuckling it for a long time now.
It isn't worth fighting.
Maybe it will find the words I cannot find.

11:27 p.m. - 10-07-13


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