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thefairlaner - 2003-09-17 11:52:02
You have no responsibility to lie to others to "protect" them. You are not responsible for their actions or their reactions to you. You are not an "example" for any one. If they are adult enough to be working and taking care of themselves they are adult enough to make those decisions for themselves. Never accept an unearned guilt. I speak for no one else. I help you because I care about you. Because you're my girlfriend. Because I see that as an exalted position. Because you are a value to me. You're beautiful, smart, stronger than you realize with depths of strength still to be tapped. Slowly but surely, things are going to get better. They are already starting to. The last time you made a right decision: you called your grandfather to help when you needed it even though you didn't want to: right decision #1. You moved in with your mother when you realized you weren't going to be able to keep the apartment. You cleaned it well and took care of the situation as best you could: right decision #2. Trevor gave you the best option you could get and you are taking it, knowing that this will be something of an obligation from you to him, even though its not the option you like: right decision #3. You went to see a doctor to help you with your depression when one drug failed and the second didn't do much: right decision #4. You don't need to hide it from me when you're feeling bad. Even if my back hurts. You are not a burden to me. You are one of my highest values. There is no greater thing a man can do in his life than fight for his values. Life will get better, its already starting to. Give it time.
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