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Rebuilding what we had

I can't help but feel like I've lost a bit of my independence in this last bout of depression. I know it is mostly deserved but it is hard for me to have to ask permission. It is hard that sometimes my husband feels more like a parent then a husband. It hurts that we are no longer equals. The hardest thing of it is I don't know how long it will last. I know it will take a long time to rebuild his trust, we both have that problem right now, but I wish there was something I could do to expedite the process.

On a happier note I'm getting my job back. I won't lose my insurance and I don't have to worry about COBRA or any of that. I still need to figure out how I can get my disability money for the time I was out of work. Does that make me a leech? I don't know. It feels somewhat dirty even filing, let alone fighting for that money. I didn't do the work, I didn't earn the money.

12:14 a.m. - 08-29-09
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