damik's Diaryland Diary
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It can wait
I'm feeling defiant today. I don't want to take my drugs, I don't want to go see my therapist tomorrow, I don't want to go see my psychiatrist next Thursday. I don't want to work on my mental health at all. I want to sit in my bedroom and cut. What would that hurt?
I may be feeling defiant, but I am still doing the things I need to do. I have a month left before I can fall apart. Any time before that and I risk failing school and not graduating this semester. I can't let that happen. I don't have the money to pay for another semester. Not to mention I am so close I can taste it.
I don't know, I wanted to write more, but I have no words. I feel defiant, and that feels different than feeling depressed. I don't know.
1:41 p.m. - 02-28-13
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older entries: When. I called when! - 11:27 p.m. , 10-07-13 Intrusive - 3:31 p.m. , 09-12-13 It isn't working today. - 2:21 p.m. , 09-09-13 Sleep, SI, Stress, and Pain, yeah, I hit them all. - 4:46 p.m. , 08-09-13 I hate this game. I don't want to play anymore. - 2:59 p.m. , 05-29-13 |
