damik's Diaryland Diary
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Fuck Johnson & Johnson
I think the TV is telling me that I'm not good enough because I don't have chidren. Because I won't have children, because I can't. I fell like I've fallen short as a woman. It's like all around me I'm being told that my life isn't worth as much, that without a little me I didn't accomplish enough in life. I think whn your broken your biological clock should break too. I'd be a broken mother. God, think of the little lives I'd screw up.
Imagine growing up with a cronically depressed, sometimes suicidal, often angry, probably abusive mother. I couldn't inflict myself on an innocent like that. I need to stop being influnced by TV like I am. I will not be happy if only I had a baby.
9:19 p.m. - 02-04-03
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older entries: When. I called when! - 11:27 p.m. , 10-07-13 Intrusive - 3:31 p.m. , 09-12-13 It isn't working today. - 2:21 p.m. , 09-09-13 Sleep, SI, Stress, and Pain, yeah, I hit them all. - 4:46 p.m. , 08-09-13 I hate this game. I don't want to play anymore. - 2:59 p.m. , 05-29-13 |
