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Wound tighter then a tic

I'm all over the place today. I swear if I were bi-polar I'd think I was manic right now, but I'm not. It's not a plesent experence. I did some phone book fishing to see if I could find some one to go somewere with, but I didn't. So I opeted to talk to my step-mother and Dad on the phone for an hour instead. Helped me feel a little more normal, but I'm still higher then I ought to be, I need a downer.
Did you know hampster's will eat hamburgar if it's offered to them?
I had more to report, but it ran out of my mind, and I didn't bother chasing it. I've got to clean house tomorrow, it's gotten messier then messy and I think Trevor is going to beat me if I don't pick it up.
I've been so bitchy too. Is it possible to be bitchy, happy, sad, sleepy, and wired all at the same time? I would tear people's heads off today, if I didn't smile and make a joke instead.
Do you know what phrase I use most when I talk?
I hate myself.
Even today, the phrase I use most is I hate myself. Everything I do, everything I think, everything I say is followed by I hate myself. I don't know how to break the chain.

11:38 p.m. - 01-23-03
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