damik's Diaryland Diary
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A thougt before
So, Dr. Tom thought it might be beneficial if I write how I' feeling before I SI. It may give us a clue to my triggers. It may prove enough of a distraciton to prevent the impulse.
The loneliness I feel is so overwhelming. I feel so empty, so nothing. I want to fill it with something, anything.
Even pain is better then this hollowness I feel.
I don't think I matter much anyway. Back to long sleaves, whou would notice anyway? The shift is so fast, yesterday I thought I had gotten back on track. Yesterday I thought everything was going to be o.k..
Today I'm feeling overwhelmed again. Today I wonder why try at all.
10:45p.m. - 11-15-01
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older entries: When. I called when! - 11:27 p.m. , 10-07-13 Intrusive - 3:31 p.m. , 09-12-13 It isn't working today. - 2:21 p.m. , 09-09-13 Sleep, SI, Stress, and Pain, yeah, I hit them all. - 4:46 p.m. , 08-09-13 I hate this game. I don't want to play anymore. - 2:59 p.m. , 05-29-13 |
