damik's Diaryland Diary

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flutterby

Hello butterflies, I've missed you.
It's been a long time since I've had this feeling. The sick nervousness of some one who wants to do well. I'm running the Murray Fun Days 5K tomorrow. I must not kill myself at the begining. I'm excited and everything. But I don't have anyone to cheer me on, which sucks.
Well here's something. I had my apt. with Dr. Tom today. This morning, before the apt. I was dreading going. I don't know why. But the whole time I was wanting to just blow the whole thing off. But I convince myself to get into the car and go. I get to the parking lot, and still I have this impulse to blow the whole thing off and just go home. All the way up the elevator the same thing. I just don't want to go to this apointment. I get to the office and he has the in session sign up, so I sit down with a magazine and wait. Five minutes pass, ten. Soon a half hour has passed and he still has his door shut. I tenitively knock on his door because I don't want to desturb him if he's with some one. And what do you know. He double booked the time. If I had just listened to my instincts, I would have not wasted that time. Goes to show I guess.

11:54 p.m. - 07-03-02
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