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Not irreplaceable

I would just wish to not be replaceable. In every aspect of my life there is someone waiting in the wings. If I quit my job, they'd have me replaced with little heartache. If Trevor and I broke up... he's got standbys.
I used to think the worst thing that could happen is that I would die and be forgotten. But the worst is I don't need to die to be forgotten. I just need to leave the room.
Trevor bought the movie "The One" not a very good movie but, when Gabe's wife dies and he laments that she was his center and he's nothing with out her...
I don't know, it's probably not the best thought... but I wish Trevor would feel like he's nothing without me.
If only I could inspire such love, such dedication.
People like me are a dime a dozen. He deserves so much better. I want to be the girl he deserves, and I hurt him everyday because I'm not.

10:15 p.m. - 04-03-02
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