damik's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ----- I think about who I promised I'd call, wether my body will scream for oxygen in the five or ten minuts it will take. I think wether he'll hate me for giving up, and if thinking about it is giving up already. I think about where I'll be to do it. If I'll do it at my mother's or find somewhere that has meaning to me. I don't really feel anything right now, save a feeling of relief at the idea it could be over soon. I tell myself that it is not an option, that it isn't a plan and I'm not going to do it, but myself already seems to have made the decision. It would be so easy too. Escape into nothingness. And I'm a selfish enough bitch not to care what anyone else would feel about it 8:29 p.m. - 09-30-03 -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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