damik's Diaryland Diary
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The betrayal
I let my emotions betray me at the gym today.
I�ve never been good at push ups.
I feel so awkward and uncoordinated when I�m there. My trainer was having me do all these different exercises and I just couldn�t get them. But I did find out I have no balance with my left leg. Odd, in track I used to be able to balance on either leg forever�
And then she had me doing pushups, I hate that I�m not strong enough, and too heavy to push back up. Mostly I hate that I�m too heavy to push back up. So she was encouraging me, and I tried, but I was getting so frustrated.
I�m ashamed to admit that I started to cry.
Yes, I know there is no crying at the gym.
7:18 p.m. - 10-28-02
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