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Not as bad as all that is it?

There is no lonelier sound then the phone not ringing. I feel like such a looser. I'm getting better at being by myself, if you discount the fact that right after I type this I'm going back to bed. But I hate the phone not ringing. I like having people to talk to, I like having things to do.
It was so wierd working on a Wendsday night. I don't think I'll be doing it again for a long, long time. I like going out on Wendsdays. Its a fun night, much better then Mondays thats for sure.
I feel lost floating around this apartment by myself. Do you think there will ever come a time when I'm O.K. just being on my own? Or will I always have this need to fill the space with people?
Talking about filling spaces, my veiws on purging have always been a little sketchy, I properted to be against it, while I've done it a handfull of times, but I do think I've come close to making a decision on the subject. Had myself a bowl of speghetti O's last night, along with the overwhelming desire to purge it. I didn't because I thought about how much of a waste of recorses it is. If I'm not going to eat it for the nutritional value (as if with speghetti o's but that's another matter) then I should save the sixty-five cents for something else instead of watching it literally go down the toilet. And I can get by on water just as well.
I think when I wake up I'll do that job hunt thing again.

9:35 a.m. - 04-17-03
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