damik's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Sometimes I can't see through the moment Yesterday Will and I got me a little ring to comemorate 90 days w/o self injury. A little silver ring with a deep red cz. I wanted to give it back today because I felt like a fraud. I wanted to cut because of how badly I hate myself. I don't fit into my size 12's any more. I don't even fit into the size 34's I gave to Will. I have let myself go badly. I hate how much I weigh now. I hate looking into the mirror and hating what I see. All the failed attempts I've had at weight loss is discouraging me. He got frusterated with me and my pessimisum. He talked about goal orented action. How I should never give up. He's right and I know it. I get myself so worked up and so discouraged I don't see it. I don't want to hear it. 5:57 p.m. - 04-10-04 -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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