damik's Diaryland Diary
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Scattered leaves
I don't know. The feeling of desperation is growing. Seperation and loneliness. Trever likes the apt. dark. Maybe it's fitting that I go through a dark time again.
I didn't have to go to work today. I wanted to curl up and sleep, but instead I offered to take lunch to work for Trevor. I hoped he would apreciate it. I think he did. I got lunch for pretty much all his co-workers. I only messed up on one of the orders, and I'm not sure it was my mistake or Trevor's.
I know that I pretty much messed everything up for us. I'm going to take on a third job, that's the only way I can see to fix this. I wonder if I have anything I can sell. I didn't want this to turn out like this. We need help.
Well I got back on track sort of. I figured that because I missed what two weeks I should pretty much start the program over. So I started on a day so that that days off would still land on Sat. It was a thirty min. run walk. All told I did 2.25 miles. I felt pretty good afterwards too. Tomorrow is just a walk. I can do this, I am not a flake. I don't need some one running with me to continue working out. I can go by myself. And once again, least I forget, movies are never more important then running.
10:02 p.m. - 11-05-01
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older entries: When. I called when! - 11:27 p.m. , 10-07-13 Intrusive - 3:31 p.m. , 09-12-13 It isn't working today. - 2:21 p.m. , 09-09-13 Sleep, SI, Stress, and Pain, yeah, I hit them all. - 4:46 p.m. , 08-09-13 I hate this game. I don't want to play anymore. - 2:59 p.m. , 05-29-13 |
