damik's Diaryland Diary
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There is no Arizona
How deep do I have to cut to make the pain of him saying he doesn't want to go anywhere with me at all go away? How much blood do I have to let before I stop feeling the hurt of him saying he can't stand being around me? What do I have to do to regain my dignity from following him around like a pathetic dog begging him for some kind of attention? I feel like some time�s he puts up with me because he has to. I hate being annoying, clingy. But I'm so lonely, so desperately lonely.
And he promises, and promises. Tomorrow, forever tomorrow. Because tomorrow he doesn't have to deal with me today.
9:02 p.m. - 05-08-02
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older entries: When. I called when! - 11:27 p.m. , 10-07-13 Intrusive - 3:31 p.m. , 09-12-13 It isn't working today. - 2:21 p.m. , 09-09-13 Sleep, SI, Stress, and Pain, yeah, I hit them all. - 4:46 p.m. , 08-09-13 I hate this game. I don't want to play anymore. - 2:59 p.m. , 05-29-13 |
